Grammy's Birthday

Grammy would have turned 66 today...I have felt her spirit with me all weekend especially yesterday when Mila, Ellie, Nevan and I spent the day together. We had lunch at taco bell to enjoy the bean burrito the Grammy loved so much. :) Then we spent hours at Play Mobil where Grammy loved to watch the kids playing with all the toys.

Today, I am headed to drive our favorite path long A1A to view the gorgeous ocean while playing favorite songs that she and I used to sing-to together. :)

I miss you everyday, Mom.
The kids and I talk about you every time I am with them and they too have so many amazing memories with you.

We will never forget you Grammy and will celebrate you by living each day to the fullest just like you did.

Mila analyzes the cats BA, Newman, Sinatra and Kira

Energy

I wish I could bottle up all the energy that you three have Mila, Ellie and Nevan.
You never cease to amaze me; you just go-go-go and I love it!
You guys rock.
:)
Love,
AuntJen

More art work by Mila

On Grammy's cork board...Mila, age 7...I still can't get over what artists these girls are.
Love you!
~Aunt Jen

I love Grammy! By Ellie

Love you Grammy! By Mila

Mila loves Grandpa Ed

After visiting Grandpa Ed's gravesite Mila created this beautiful art!

Ellie loves Grandma!

Ellie put this on the refrigerator at Grammy's after school and I just love it!

Mila, the Artist!

Mila created this amazing drawing and put it above Mom's TV so that she can look at it while in bed...she is such a talented artist!  Love!

Ellie and Aunt Jen...

Heart mending

Today has been a really hard day; well actually this past week has been with Mom.
She has been having more trouble than ever and I'm really sad about it...I don't feel strong at all at the moment although everyone around me keeps saying how much I am and how they couldn't do it, yada yada.

This month is just a touchy month for me I think, so every thing makes me tear up....

Anyway, I got back to the house from my knee doctor appointment and Tiff was here with Mila, Ellie and Nevan....when I opened the door Nevan came running over to me and said "Aunt Jen!" then immediately grabbed my legs and gave me the best hug ever.

It's amazing how the little things these angels do mend the little tears in my heart....

I love you three more than you may ever know.

It's times like this.....

As I sit and watch my Mom sleep each night I contemplate life...
Not just what has been, but what is to come.
Memories flood in and play through my mind as if I'm sitting in a dark movie theater all alone...goosebumps and tears are my new makeup style.
The beautiful moments Mom and I have shared in just my 35 years on this earth play over and over like a
beautiful precious broken record in my mind. Wanting more and blessed for even these...
And I find myself staring at her and imagining what her life was like pre-kids; based on all her stories of being a child in Ocala then falling in love with my Dad and following him to various Air Force bases to be with the
man she loved. It was truly a journey for love, all the way to the Philippines where they were married.
Such a beautiful 36 year love story. And really, it's not just Mom and Dad but the family they created when Tiff and I were born.
We are so blessed for the time we all shared together all those years growing up...so precious....ones we will
never be able to replace.
Love you Fresh Gresh's. :):)

Where have you been?

Wow! Time sure has flown by since I last posted here.

Mom had a stroke on January 2nd and was admitted to JFK hospital again then 8 days later released to Morse Life for rehabilitation. After 30+ days there and not any major progress I decided to get her the hell out of there. She had been asking please please, so when no progress was made, I agreed to find a way....

I have taken a leave of absence from work and am here in her home with her 24/7 to make sure she is taken care of, comfortable and finally feeling some peace. Her three babies Newman, Sinatra and BA couldn't' be more thrilled that she is home.

Every day is a new challenge but I have embraced what is and am making the most of every moment.

Will write more later; need to go to bed now as Mila is here for a sleepover and is fast asleep in my room which is what I need to do. Not sleeping much can't be good for me. So nitey nite for now. Enjoy these few pics below of recent moments in time. :):)

``Mila's art work at the door - LOVE the shoes!``

```Grammy loves the icing on Mila's half-birthday cake 3.15.12```

Mila JUST DANCEs 3.16.12 during sleepover with AuntJen and Grammy!